QUICK WHAT'S THE NUMBER FOR 911?
All through college I had big dreams to work for the
government, FBI type of things. Closer to graduation I began to realize that’s
not what I wanted to do with my criminal justice degree. As May crept closer, I
was still clueless. While most of my friends were frantically applying for
jobs, I took on the approach that I wanted one more summer on the Cape to do
hoodrat things, relax before taking a 9-5 job, and hoped that in those few
months I would realize something I was super passionate about…other than Calvin
Harris. Fast forward two years,
and I still don’t have a clue as to what I want to do for the rest of my life and while that freaks me da fuck out, I'm slowly starting to accept it. Other than becoming famous and being the
parking garage mogul of Boston, I have a hard time pin pointing what direction
I’d like to go in. I also now have weekly panic attacks that go something like this:
IM 24 YEARS OLD WITH NO DIRECTION, AN INABILTY TO COMMIT.... AND WHY AM I CURRENTLY
ON CRAIGSLIST LOOKING AT PERSONAL ADS FOR FUN WHEN I SHOULD BE LOOKING FOR AN
APARTMENT? I then have to remind myself that it’s not the end of the
world, there are a lot of people my age in the same position and that calling
home and telling my parents my life is over is a little melodramatic.
But this is normal right? It totally has to be. While I have no clear path paved for me, it's not always going to be socially acceptable for me to binge drink, wake up the next morning wondering who I snapchatted, demand a breakfast sandwich be delivered to me and then claim that I'm never going to drink again. That being said, I can't waste my time thinking about what's going to happen tomorrow when I should be more concerned about where I'm going to order fro-yo from tonight. Maybe one of these days, I'll wake up and have a better idea of what I want to be doing ten years from now, but until then IMMA KEEP DOING ME.
Yours in life lessons,
Bonnie
PS. You should listen to this song:
Electric Guest - This Head I Hold
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVSiwMVaKe4
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